Do I Have A Confidence Problem.

My notes.

I have just been reading the Acoustical and Physical Dynamics of the Diatonic Harmonica.

Yes it was interesting !  but i think i live in a different world i seem to take on projects that are well above my level of understanding.

I have been trying to play any short of musical instrument from my early teens and to this day i still cannot tune in a guitar, ukulele, or any other stringed instrument this along with a very limited learning curve makes playing music a very frustrating hobby.

However when i first tried the harmonica i found it easy to play the best part of a tune i knew reasonably well  and could normally work out the full tune by ear.

And on comparing my notes with published song books my notes were very close to the published songs in the books however this is the part I don't understand when i try to learn from a song book i can not pick it up at all.

This then frustrates me and to the point of thinking why the F??k am i bothering its a bit like hitting a brick wall every time you ride your bike this problem has been with me from my early years . Could this be a confidence problem standing up in public has never been my bag but i have no problem teaching people things that i know about.

I have in the past worked at teaching pattern cutting, photography,Motorcycle training and martial arts so not overly shy Or could the problem be the fact that my parents  especially my father always told me that has long as i have a hole in my arse i would never be able to do anything. This is now becoming a challenge  i would really love to go out and do some busking without choking up every time.