A few miles inland it was fine and me working on my suntan which was quick and severe, like a lot of people nowadays I suffer from sunshine deficiency and get very depressed when indoors.
I found out how bad this problem was at the beginning of my working life when working in a factory and suffering frequent bouts of severe depression, nervous breakdowns and quite a lot of hospital stay-overs.
I went through brain scans years of taking strong antidepressants then not being able to stay in rooms with the doors shut I was eventually passed over to a psychiatrist all to no avail.
It was myself that realized that when outside in fine weather I was a totally different person with a much brighter and friendlier attitude to others and for once in my life I actually liked myself.
It has taken over forty years for me to come to terms with an Illness which could have been solved easily and would have allowed me to live a normal and healthy life. I went through most of my life seeing things in Black and White, in other words, dull and boring. what-is-black-and-white-thinking/
I was unhappy, unapproachable, unfriendly, uncooperative, unlikeable, selfish, and lonely and worst of all unloveable and not able to give love and respect to others.
The outdoors is lives TV don't miss it get out and enjoy it before it's too late.
My life now is bright and colourfull I have respect for others and for myself, the only thing i cannot do is hold an attachment to other people if this is the only legacy from the illness am happy.
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